:'(

mornin when im on de way to work inside de bus, dunno y, eyes juz got teary...tot of hw my bro n i used to b so close together n how things became nw...realli very heartbreakin...i realli missed him alot...it took many years for us to be close when we lived together in yishun...but later he moved back to hockhai n i got married, we were not close again...till i moved out from tampines, we got closer again, but happy days dun last...why? why things became in dis way...y fate ald separated mi from my parents yet still wanna separate mi from my one n onli bro...y my bro muz keep a distance from everyone...y he onli care for himself...other dan my 2 ah ma, im onli close to 2 persons - my uncle n my bro...now my bro n i ald lidat, n my uncle gettin married soon...im back to square..back to my world of loneliness...nobody understands mi in dis world..no one knows dat actualli im very afraid of bein lonely,afraid of loneliness n darkness...nobody knows dat up to nw im still livin wif dat phobia...nobody knows...and de phobia caused a deep impact on my life...de fears n struggles of dat nite nv fades...its still ongoin to torture mi...